Moved back to the Bay...

So I put myself in a situation where I couldn't afford to live in LA anymore and instead of staying and fighting to stay and really trying to make it work down south, I took the easy route where I had two jobs lined up for me the second I moved back to the Bay. I didn't want to go back to being broke. Since moving back I haven't even opened up Ableton. I've pretty much spent all this time trying to get all my shit together which I finally did for a brief time, life was going great, the future looked amazing, I had a game plan to take over the world and then it all came crashing down. When it rains it pours and I got a hurricane coming after me. I officially hit my new low when my car wouldn't start after paying $700 to get it out of storage, which in turn will probably set a few other things in motion guaranteeing I wont be a free man in a little over a week. It's getting harder and harder stay positive and keep a smile on my face and not want to go into raven mode.

Later that night, after my car not working we went to see Ummet Ozcan. I really needed a night out in the city and I've finally found friends who actually enjoy the nightlife as much as I do and it was one of my co-workers friends Maya's Bday, so perfect situation to go out. About halfway during the set I think I hit bottom for the second time in my life. The reality of my living situation kinda sank in. Awkwardly in front of my co-worker Kimmie, who's recently turned blonde and looks stunning. I remember just sitting there watching the show and feeling the lowest I've felt since the first time my world came crashing down a few years ago in LA and hearing live music is my ultimate upper. The glimmer of light was after the show I felt inspired, it was like a reminder of what I needed to do in life. And then Pedro and I ran into Ummet!

Next day I woke up a little hungover from the night before but in an amazing mood. Ready to take on life again. The highest number on the scale I ever remember seeing on the scale was 244 and that morning I weighed in at 212.

I was making progress in life. I am making progress. I'm gonna keep on trucking and fighting everyday to make my life better than it was the day before. Come July/August, once I hopefully have everything in the past, look out world. No more wasting time. Today I am going to open up Ableton. Back to Plan A cause Plan B sucks.